Writings
Our journey begins
after leaving the womb
Into a world of wonder
with much to consume
Choices to be made
some will be right, some will be wrong.
From each will come a lesson learned
Which can help you become strong
Setting for yourself some morals
with a personality all your own
Continuing on forward
not knowing where you’re going
Making the best out of
everything it is you’ve got
Using the wisdom
which you have been taught
For when your journey ends
etched in stone your name will be
Upon a grave for all to go
In loving memory.
I’ve been sitting around this life for years,
Not enough laughs and too many tears.
Trying to figure out where it all went,
These wasted years that I have spent.
Searching for something to take me forward
yet running backwards all the time.
Life’s a stone skipping across a pond.
At the last skip, it hits with a splash,
Down the stone sinks, gone in a flash.
Pushing and pulling, it’s tearing apart,
Poking and prodding an underused heart.
This dark velvet curtain that hides my soul,
Living this life has taken it’s toll
In a flash of bright light, the curtain is torn,
Tumbling down all tattered and worn.
Revealing new life, a child within,
Born free of hate, of suffering and sin.
Now my eyes see what has never been told,
Living and laughing, loving it all,
I stood myself up and answered the call.
Striving forth happy, confident and bold.
Into a world that’s unfamiliar but friendly,
Into a world thats full of sadness but offer hope
Into a world thats full of tears but full of Joy
Into a world thats full of life but only after Death
Into this new life my spirit will send me
Into this Darklandz.
i want to say sorry
sorry
i loved you
sorry
i found peace
i found calm
i found happiness
i found myself
when i was with you
sorry
i loved you
for the i thought
i seen another
tormented soul.
sorry
i loved you
for the girl
i thought
i see
inside you.
sorry
i loved you
more than anyone else.
sorry
i loved you
not for your physical attraction
but for your inner beauty
sorry
i said i like you
for i now realize
some things are
better unsaid
sorry for expecting
you to like me
sorry for not being
the person you expect
for i am what i am
for i am no brad pitt
for i am just a man
born to give love
born to understand
i will be loved
only
only when i am dead.
I sit here
after reading fugz offering
thinking
thinking if only men feel this way?
people say women are angels
kind hearted
loving
caring
affectionate
are they all lies???
were they all part of conspiracy?
i ask…
no one can answer
for really no one knows.
so i wonder
if women feel like this?
do they get satisfaction
in seeing us suffer in darklandz
if they are not kind
loving
caring
then who are they?
or
what are they?
i put this question to them…
stunning reply i get
men dont understand us
men wants us for sex
i sit down and laugh
wanting to cry but unable to
for my tears ave all dried up
i think to myself
men want us for sex???
men dont understand us???
hahahahahaha…
what a strange situation…
i think
you leave the good
pick up the bad
and then say these…
hahahahahahaha…
i can only laugh
for i think
the purpose of women
are thee..
good men are chess pieces
take them
throw them across the board
sometimes outside
use them
take all they have
and then
destroy them
leave them in pain
sorrow
left to pickup
the
shattered life once again
with no desire
living in fear of the other species…
i wonder
the eyes they have
are for seeing the pain?
or to find only the bad men?
for i say
Open your eyes to the Beautiful Darklandz
for there you will find
many a good men
who will worship you
who will love you
more than life
and salute you
like me saluting fugz
for he is a wise one.
for he is a good man.
i come here
into the unknown
stumbling,broken, confused
seeking the way
out of the dark
hands reach out..
nurse me back
to fight again
i dont know how they look
why they are here
must have travelled into the darklandz
like me looking for the way?
maybe they were warriors??
maybe they are the wise men?
i mite never know..
but i know
i must go back
why i ask? to come back here?
or to cruise into the sunset with my lady?
i will never know
woman like darklandz are a mystery
no one knows them
no one understands them
sometimes i wonder if they understand
i cant say
for i am a man
born to fight
born into this mortal world
to be confused/broken/hurt by her
only to come back again and again
like
like a phoenix
into this timeless conflict
all i can do is
Salute those b4 me
guide those after me
for i know
men are not born to win
they are born to fight
till the woman concedes
which i ask
will it ever happen??
I am Thinking…
Why i am so Different
Different
Dont want to socialise!
Dont want to go out without a reason!
Dont want to do Window Shopping!!!
Dont know how to strike a conversation (chatup someone)!!
Dont know how to be interesting!
Dont know
Dont know why?
Dont know the reason?
Maybe i want to be an individual?
Maybe i want to break free?
Break free of what??
Tradition?
Normal Way?
Maybe its my deep desire to be loved?
Maybe its my need for an understanding person/friend?
who understands me for what i am and not what i got
maybe…
Will i know the answer?
will i ever find out?
Maybe i am meant to be different
i console myself
i am a nice person
its others who lost me
i am not meant to be here
where then?
i will never know
for they say i think Different too…
