Foolishly I Believed,
All The Words You Said.
Only When Reality Kicked In
Did I Realise It Was Just A Game.
You Played My Heart!
Wrapped My Mind In Chains!
Undermined My Defences,
And Stole My Soul.
When There Was No More To Take,
You Turned Your Back
And Walked Away,
Onward To Your Next Victim
Me, Left Behind, A Broken Wreck!
A Shell Without A Soul.
An Overwelming Emptiness
Filled My Every Day,
As I Watch You Take …
Your Next Conquest, Willingly, By The Hand
And Lead Them To Their Doom.

Fugazi

I Look Into My Future
From The Echo’s Of My Past
Dream Of Things As Yet Unknown
Ideas That Will No Last.
A Pause Of Pregnant Nature
Where Even Time Is Set On Pause
Waiting With Baited Breath
For Me To Give Just Cause
That While I Hold The Power
To Take You Life Or Not
Do I Simply Walk Away
Or Take The Killing Shot
I Look Into Your Rabbit Eyes
See Hatred Streaked With Fear
Is That Moistness Starting?
The Beginnings Of A Tear.
Do I Want To Be A Killer?
Lose Another Piece Of My Soul
If I Blow Away Your Soulfull Eyes
Will I Ever Be Whole?
It Seems To Be So Useless
No Point In This Killing Act
I Holster My Gun And Walk Away
And You Shot Me In The Back.

Kill Or Be Killed
Thats What We Were Told
I Never Really Believed It
Never Thought Others Could Be So Cold

I Wonder What Your Thinking
Does It Matter Now I’m Dead
Or Are The Thoughts That I Had
Now Running Through Your Head.

Fugazi

How can a heart be broken twice
How can faith be swept aside
How can a soul be torn again
Quite simply with a lie.
I thought I was over you
Thought I’d moved along
How could I be so stupid
How could I be so wrong.
What I found this lonely night
The words that you had sent
Have finally killed the final spark
The fire of love all spent
I never gave up hoping
Never truely believed
That all we had ended
How easily I was decieved
For long before this started
Your eyes were focused away
No matter how much I wanted
Everything finished that day.

So please don’t be offended
If I cry myself to sleep
If you hear my sorrow
excuse me while I weep

I no longer wish to hold you
though the yearning is always there
I’ve finally come to realise
you never really cared.
I should explain to the world
that an angel you are not
but I love our children to much
to burden them with our lot
I sit here writing verses
Just trying to work it out
everything has a purpoose
of that there is no doubt
Was your mission to love me
then break my heart in two
all I ever wanted
was forever to be with you
But now that time is over
your actions have murdered what was
killed what could have been
but just remember this, because…

…I won’t be offended
If you cry yourself to sleep
and if I hear your sorrow
I’ll excuse you while you weep.

No excuses for your actions
No words can dull the pain
No amount of sorrys
Could make me trust you again.

All because you could not sit
and tell me what was wrong
You built that wall around yourself
and made it much to strong
I could never breach it
could never find the door
Until the day I stopped trying
until I could take no more.

So please don’t be offended
If I cry myself to sleep
If you hear my sorrow
excuse me while I weep

Just excuse me while I weep

Fugaazi

In the darken hole you curl
Like a baby in the womb
No chance you can escape
From the confines of this tomb.
sound can reach your ears
light can touch your eyes
and every day you lie there
another piece will die
Although your mind is crying out
your tongue is tied in knots
although you skin is icy cold
your soul it burns red hot

A simple injection is all it took
to put your body to sleep
oh how you want to touch the hand
of your mother as she weeps
“Just one little hit”
Your friends all said
“Everybodies doing it
and they are not dead”

Just one little prick in the vein in your arm
Felt the joy raise as through your body it tore
No time to think, to late to stop
As the first hint of rush hit your brain with a roar
To late to stop
To far gone
only when seizure hit you
did you think something was wrong

One little needle to waste your life
no more future, no more dreams
as you lie on your coma straining to speak
nobody can hear your silent screams.

Fug

i am thinking whether to allow comments or not..

i have been toying with the idea since i installed this script in the morning (thats when i decided to blog )

my worry is what if people decide to spam the page??

already i get shitload of emails every single day.

even today the worthless piece of spam blocker in yahoo is not working.. i get over 2000 emails a day. so i had to turn off bulk email. dont even know if someone really wanting to contact me emails there as i stopped using it.

compared to that, hotmail is way better..

maybe i will enable comments and if i get spammed then disable it

its close to 4am now and still i am unable to sleep..

tried going to bed early.. failed.

tried to read a book or play a game on my mobile.. still no luck..

so thought i’ll get/make something to eat.. so had some leftover pizzas and still unable to sleep..

this is a regular feature now.. staying awake till 4am or 5am and then getting up at 1pm.

since most of the days i got nothing to do in the way of full time work, i guess this suits me

maybe once i get a job proper i might be able to beat this late sleeping habit.

been to all the forums again.

i guess most of the forums traffic comes from just me going in to check the posts every 30 mins or so..

maybe i shall just listen to some music or write another poem