Archive for July, 2009

new look

almost missed out, incase you did not notice, Poetry of Life has a new design.

the old one was kind of become stale as it was close to 3-4 yrs without any major change. The new one brings a much needed layout change and also puts more focus on the latest poem.

emptiness

pthere is a sudden emptiness that i feel all around me. And the more i try to understand the reasons behind it, the less that i am able to concentrate on writing. At the same time, i am unable to use this as an inspiration for writing new poems too. I am hoping it does not stay for long. I have plenty to write about – emotions, especially anger suppressed inside and waiting to come out. Plus couple of events that i am trying to get them out in decent words.
watch this space or keep an eye out in a poetry of life.

What went on while i was away

A lot of things happened during the time i was away from here. Most notably, i came face-to-face with the reality that i am the master of my own fortune, which initially was pretty scary.  Scary simply because just like everyone else the comfort of the paycheck coming in every month was a soothing factor.

But now the same is not going to happen. I would have to earn my livelihood. And frankly i am no magician nor i am someone with so much contacts that all my ideas would immediately be sponsored by someone else.

Till date, whatever i have done, as a matter of fact achieved, has been purely out of hard work and mostly due to my never give-up attitude. There were people around and have helped me out with something or the other. But the major chunk of the effort had to come from myself.

I should say i have been pretty lucky to have the support of some of the key people in my life – most notably my mom, my sisters and my childhood friend. Even when i had some initial doubts about my own ability, their constant support and the belief in myself, helped me come out of those questionable time.

Apart from that, my interest in studies once again has picked. If time permits and i make good money, i am seriously considering doing another masters. I have not decided on what, but i would like to go back to studying. I am thinking of learning a course in Food/Nutrition.  Only time will tell.

I also realized i am getting old, considering the intense pressure that i am being subjected to by the same people mentioned above to get married. For a long time, i have been very successful in giving some excuse or the other, but now that mom is also back from the surgery, the pressure has been doubled and it is becoming intense as days proceed. Not that i do not want to get married, but i just feel there are couple of other things that i need to do before i settle down.

Oh yeah, i am seriously considering/thinking about getting a new tattoo – #6 Just have to finalize it and get myself to the tattoo parlour to get it done.

to be continued…

Welcome back

A big welcome back to good ol’ me . Last post was almost 3 months ago (just a day before my birthday) and it took “the blogger formerly known as sansmerci” to make me realize its been a long time since i posted anything here.

It’s been an amazing 3 months of sorts. One of my dreams came true (finally). I quit my job and started my own company. Since then it’s been a wonderful time – learning a lot, finding out a lot and most of all, free to do what i want to do.

While it had been that for me personally, there was this pressure from work and trying to please people who just did not understand how things worked. Not to blame them, but then that’s something i cannot stand. Forcing me to do things against my principles and getting blamed for someone’s else mistake was a bit too much to take for me. The last company i was working for, well, less said the better about them. I learnt how not to run a company there. Driven by greed for money, every action and every little thing was for money and money only.

Tried to hold as far as possible, eventually we both just couldn’t co-exist. With people bitching about one another, constantly trying to bring the other person down, all it took was a short meeting to decide my priorities and i was out on April 6th.

And i glad to be out of it. I have been doing a lot of things, meeting a lot of great people, writing new poems and ofcourse enjoying life since then.

But sadly, i also came face to face with a reality i cannot ignore… I am getting old

More in the next post in a couple of days