Archive for September, 2008
Time is a mystery
Life is a mystery everyone says, but if you ask me Time is a bigger mystery. When you want it to go slow, it just zooms like a roadrunner. And when you want time to go fast, it just crawls like a snail.
I did not realize two weeks had gone past since I last spoke with her. Only a text message enlightened of that fact that neither of us spoke or even made any attempt to break the silence. It is very unusual of me to remain silent especially with certain people.
I decided to break the ice and called her up immediately. But as luck would have it, there was no response. Being the tech savvy person, I sent her a text message
"Hi, its been a while since we talked. So, if you are free tomorrow lets meet over a cup of coffee."
The Elusive Search
It all happened very suddenly, I was busy trying to figure out what was going on and probably the frustration of not trying to reach a solution got the better off me. I quickly wrapped up everything, switched off the computer and left work.
Not sure where I was headed, I climbed on my bike and just proceeded where the roads took me. As the hunger pangs overpowered my senses, I stopped at a nearby restaurant hoping to put an end to this at-least.
Waiting for my order to come, I started to wonder what I was doing wrong. What seemed so damn perfect yesterday now seemingly has gone out of control. But as soon the food was in-front of me, everything vanished and I quickly gobbled up everything on the plate.
Mysterious Girl
As I made my way into the marriage hall, I could not find any familiar faces. I had come to a friend’s wedding reception yet I was feeling so lonely and irritated.
The events from the previous evening still haunted me and try as much as possible, I couldn’t shake them off my mind. I decided not to come to this reception yet I needed to break out of the cage that I have found myself in. Since this was also my best friend’s wedding reception I cannot avoid it as well. So with a heavy heart and a fake smile, I dressed up decently, made my way into this "party loving crowd", wished them and promptly took my place in the last few rows of the hall.
"Son, what are you doing here?" a huge voice billowed from the room next to me.
The Web of Life
Disclaimer: This is not the continuation of the previous writing. My second attempt at non-poetic writing.
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As I lay there on the bed after a hard day at work, my phone rings just like every single day. Lifting my head slowly and answering the phone for answering sake, I listen to the entire speech without interrupting.
"I want to meet you in person." I spoke in a soft voice that was barely audible.
"Sorry I cannot see you now, but I will see you tomorrow morning " the voice on the other side whispered in a trembling voice.
Having agreed to meet the next day, I had nothing else to say and promptly disconnected the line.
Grabbing a bottle of water from the fridge, I went back to bed and dozed off soon or at-least tried to.
Matter of Choice
Disclaimer: This is my first attempt at something non-poetic. Infact the very first time i have written something in a story format. So, if you find anything wrong or anything that could be written differently/better, please let me know so that i can make the changes in the next attempt.
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I reached home and hit the bed straight. Everything has been said and done. All the things have come to a grinding halt and there is nothing else left to do anymore.
Emotions knew no meaning and I was trembling with uncertain thoughts. All my hopes and all my dreams have just come crashing down within a span of 30 minutes.
All things that I treasured meant nothing and try as much, "I couldn’t sleep". Until today afternoon, everything was so good. I felt like a "prince" living life to the fullest.
But in one fateful afternoon, I witnessed what I "never dared to dream". And that ended it all. My whole world came "crashing down" like a toy house. I wasn’t sure if I wanted to live or if I wanted to die. "Life had become a question mark to me".
Short Stories
Ever since I was asked to write short stories I simply laughed at the suggestion and did not take it seriously. But in the last couple of days, I gave this some serious thought and right now I am proud author of 3 short stories 
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Nothing fancy and nothing earth shattering, just that instead of writing poems, I decided to write them as short stories.
Randomness
Here are the rules and then on to the random fun!
- Link to the person who tagged you
- Post the rules to your blog
- Write 4 random things about yourself.
- Tag 2-5 people at the end of your post and link to them
- Let each person you have tagged know by leaving a comment on their blog.
- Let the tagger know when your entry is posted.
Sadly the person who tagged me does not have a blog that I can link to 
randomness #1
This has to be on the top of the list. I hate formal clothes. For some reason, I feel very awkward in it, that like a girl I would constantly check myself to make sure its all ok 
randomness #2
I do not get angry that easily. Only when something goes real wrong or someone pisses me off very much, that I show my anger. But I just shout at them or walk away from the spot and vent out the rage on my mobile phone or anything that’s close by 
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randomness #3
one of my favorite things to do is spend time in a coffee shop or sit in the beach watching the waves/sunset – either alone or with a friend. But off late I have been spending far more time alone 
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who have been bugged and annoyed a lot by me 
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randomness #4
I am a very simple person with simple thoughts and a no nonsense approach to life 
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That’s it.
2 people I am going to tag are
A bit of this and bit of that
Right now I have no idea what to write about. Lots of thoughts swirling around but unable to “fix” on to one and write 
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On Friday, my last day at work finished off rather peacefully and while I was glad to leave the place, I left behind a lot of good memories and good people. But its that time where we can still keep in touch via email, mobile or at times catch up in person as well . Only time will tell 
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Saturday was a wonderful day. The morning started with a “beautiful” meeting and sadly I was the one doing the talking for most of the time. While I would have loved to spend more time, it finished rather quickly . The evening was time well spent catching up on a lot of things and again like morning, it had to finish a bit quickly 
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Sunday was just spent relaxing at home finishing off the preparation for a brand new start on Monday.
Finally, Monday saw me take up a new and exciting role. One that is bound to keep occupied and learning a lot of new stuff for sometime to come 
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That should it for the time being as I am really bored to type more at this time .
Mission Moon: Chandrayaan-I unveiled
INDIA’S FIRST MISSION TO MOON
Heart vs Mind
One of the things that I strongly believe is, in order to understand the world better I must first understand myself. There are a lot of times when I have questioned myself as to why I am certain things and why I am not doing others. It is easy for me to ignore all these and just shrug my shoulders and say “this is what I am” – an unstable brat who does not know what he is doing.
The fact is whatever I have done so far is not out of instinct or out of arrogance (whatever you want to call it). Any thing I have done is only after thinking about it and only, I repeat, only when my heart says yes to it.
Human mind is like a monkey. It can jump anytime, anywhere without any control. That’s why I do not trust my mind and instead trust what my heart says . It might sound a bit strange, but the fact is the shortest way to happiness is doing what your heart wants you to do rather than allowing the mind.
Generally speaking, for most people it will make much more sense to lead from their mind in their business lives. This is primarily because the priorities of most businesses (maximizing profits, niche marketing, strategic planning, etc.) are best accomplished from strategies that are developed from your mind.
On the other hand, leading from your heart will make your life more peaceful and fulfilling. Generally speaking, it is the superior choice for your personal life if things like peace, purpose, fulfillment, and inspiration are important to you.
Money is required to lead a life. But so far I have never run behind it nor allowed it take “control” of my life. What I have is sufficient for my life style. Once I let my mind take control, sadly everything else takes a back seat – relationships, health, social life etc.. etc… I get turned into a machine out to achieve a certain goal and it means losing a lot of other things. In my quest to earn more and more, I would simply forget to live and repent for it at a later point in life when it is of no use trying to live again.
The great thing about listening to my heart is I never have to fight my emotions. Instead I embrace the very emotions that define me as an individual. If something feels right, I go ahead and do it else I do not 
. In this way, there is no second thought on what I have done is right or wrong, simply because my heart knows what is right for me in any moment based on my emotional needs, body needs etc… Ofcourse, this means I live a simple life where happiness, peace and love means a lot to me than money. If you have not figured it out, I listen to my heart .
Ofcourse there are times when the heart is wrong and the mind is right. But ultimately it all boils down to one single thing – when to listen to the heart and when to listen to the mind. Once you figure this out, life will be very simple.
When I started to write this one, I remembered this story of “The Businessman and the Fisherman”.
What do you really hope to achieve in life? Read this story and you may find what you are always hoping to achieve, you may be already having it.
There was once an American businessman who was sitting by the beach in a small Mexican village. As he sat, he saw a Mexican fisherman rowing a small boat towards the shore and noticed that the fisherman has caught quite a number of big fishes that is known to be a delicacy. The American was really impressed and asked the fisherman, “How long does it take you to catch so many fishes?”
The fisherman replied, “Oh, just a short while.”
“Then why don’t you stay longer at sea and you could catch even more?” The businessman was astonished.
The fisherman simply does not agree. “This is enough to feed my whole family,” he says.
The businessman then asked, “So, what do you do for the rest of the day then?”
The fisherman replied, “Well, I usually wake up early in the morning, go out to sea and catch a few fishes, then I would go back and play with my kids. In the afternoon, I will take a nap with my wife, and evening comes, I will join my buddies in the village for a drink, we play guitar, sing and dance throughout the night. My days are ever so complete and carefree.”
The businessman does not agree with his way of life and offered a suggestion to the fisherman.
“I am a PhD holder graduated from Harvard University, specializing in business management. I could help you to become a more successful person. From now on, you have to spend more time at sea and try to catch as many fishes as possible. And when you have saved enough money, you could buy a bigger boat and catch even more fishes. As you go on, you will be able to afford to buy more boats, recruit more fishermen and lead a team of your own. Soon you will be able to set up your own company, your very own production plant for canned food and do direct selling to your distributors. At that time, you will have moved out of this village and to Mexico City, and then expand your operation to LA, and finally to New York City, where you can set up your HQ to manage all your other branches.”
The fisherman asks, “So, how long would that take?”
The businessman reply, “About 15 to 20 years.”
The fisherman continues, “And after that?”
The businessman laughs heartily, “After that, you can live like a king in your own house, and when the time is right, you can go public and float your shares in the Stock Exchange, by then you will be rich, your income will be coming in by the millions!”
The fisherman asks, “And after that?”
The businessman says, “After that, you can finally retire, you can move to a house by the fishing village, wake up early in the morning and catch a few fishes, then return home to play with kids, have a nice afternoon nap with your wife, and when evening comes, you can join your buddies for a drink, play the guitar, sing and dance throughout the night!”
The fisherman was puzzled, “Isn’t that what I am doing now?”
So, what does one really hope to achieve in life? Do we really need to work so hard in life? What do you hope to accomplish in the end?
